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From the archives, it's one of our travel editor's favourite stories ever.
EDITOR’S NOTE: It’s been over 5 years since we published this epic tale of cycling by Curtis Gillespie and I still think it’s my favourite piece of writing I’ve ever overseen. The fact that it didn’t win the National Magazine Award for the category it was nominated in is a travesty (though the fact that Curtis was nominated a record 5 times that year and won twice maybe didn’t help). I recently came across the unexpurgated text – that has more than a thousand extra words and had a blast re-reading it. I hope you do too.Neal McLennan, Travel Editor
The ambulance came shrieking up behind us on the D1091 along the valley floor south of Grenoble, heading towards Rochetaille, the departure point for our cycling ascent of the iconic Tour de France stage at Alpe dHuez. We pulled to the side as much as the narrow road would allow, and the ambulance howled past.
If that ambulance is heading to Alpe dHuez, I said to Rich, maybe it should stay there. We might need it later.
We laughed¦but probably shouldnt have.
An hour later, everything seemed right with the world. Wed parked at a roadside turnout near Rochetaille, done a quick up and down a nearby hill, and were now cycling towards the base of Alpe dHuez. It was a measured and entirely tolerable twenty kilometre warmup, and I said as much to Rich.
Enjoy it while it lasts, he said.
Alpe dHuez is one of most celebrated climbs in the Alps, partly due to being a regular on the Tour rota, partly because if It's not the hardest climb It's still hellishly difficult, partly due to the sheer relentlessness of the slope, and partly due to the ridiculously picturesque nature of its twisting, winding curves. It's an elemental climb, packed with drama and beauty and suffering.
Did I mention the suffering? Ten minutes after wed started going uphill, I was locked in an internal existential debate on the precise nature of pain. We were still on the first slope. Id been doing close to 50 km/h as we hit the base, but 200 metres up the slope it was as if a parachute had opened behind me. I was now doing under 10 km/h. And was struggling. Badly. Wed yet to hit the first of the 21 famous hairpins, and I knew, with sudden clarity, that there was no way I was going to make it up that mountain if this kept up. I pegged the incline at about 30%; Rich told me later it was 10%.
As I valiantly tried to keep the pedals turning over, my mind flooded with questions: What is my limit? How much harder can I push? Why am I doing this? Will I be able to live with myself if I quit? At the first hairpin, Rich was circling waiting for me. Hed yet to break a sweat.
One down, he said. Twenty to go.
Another question arrived: Would anyone miss Rich if I pushed him over the edge of the cliff?
Before I could work out the logistics of the crime, hed taken off towards Hairpin #2. I followed. We had one goal, or at least I had one goalnow that we were on the hill, I wanted to make it to the summit without stopping. By Hairpin #7, I was feeling less panicky about the whole enterprise, possibly due to oxygen deprivation. Wed been riding for just under 40 minutes. This is doable, I thought. I might just be able to make it up this mountain. Rich asked me how I was doing.
Not bad, I huffed back. Hey, what's the record for climbing Alpe dHuez, anyway? How fast do the pros do it?
Not sure, exactly, he said. I think around forty minutes.
I put my head down. Just keep turning the pedals. Just keep turning the pedals.
Five hairpins later we cleared the treeline and the world suddenly seemed to open out beneath us. The valley floor was now so far below us I found it impossible to believe wed gotten this far under our own power. Another half an hour on, we hit the final hairpin. Fifteen minutes later, we found the post signifying the high point of the official Tour de France stage. We stopped, took a picture, filled our lungs, and turned down. After stopping for a bite in one of the quaint cafes in the town, we hit the hairpins to let gravity do its work.
It's here that we must talk about what they don't tell you in the guide books and on the websites and in the travelogues (at least the ones I read, which were clearly the wrong ones). They tell you that cycling in the Alps is stunning for the scenery. (True.) They tell you that French drivers respect cyclists and share the road. (True.) They tell you that you can stop in any village and get a perfect latte. (True.) They tell you that It's difficult to fully prepare for the suffering and pain you'll need to endure to make it to the top. (True.) And they all tell you, in rapturous tones, that at the top you will be suffused with satisfaction, bathed in endorphins, glistening with the honeyed sweat of your own satisfied effort. (True.)
But they don't tell you much about going back down. They don't tell you that It's easy to let the brain switch off ever so slightly and that it would only be normal to let your guard down. And why would you do this? Because you have achieved your mission, have you not? Your goal was to make it up the mountain. The massive strain and effort and heart pounding in your ears and quads on fire and the thoughts of quitting, all that happened going up. And then you got to the top, and it all went away, so surely that must mean the mission has been accomplished. Right?
I only had to freewheel for mere seconds on the descent to accelerate to 60 km/h. We were swooshing, flying, screaming down the hill, and it was exhilarating and terrifying in equal measures. After successfully negotiating the trickiest of the hairpins in the middle of the descent, we finally stopped at the side of the road at Hairpin #2, where we had a look both out over the lower valley and back up the mountain.
You did it, said Rich, grinning. He looked up the mountain. Can you believe we climbed that?
I smiled. It was true. A feeling of satisfaction flooded through me. We've earned our dinner tonight. I urged him on. You first. And go as fast as you like. I know youve been holding back a bit for me. I'll see you at the bottom.
He tore off, and after adjusting one of my gloves I followed. The road down, between Hairpin #2 and the final Hairpin, #1, was a little more sinuous than the rest, and partly in the shade, now that we were back beneath the tree line. The pavement was slick here and there with spring runoff, and as I let my speed pick up I noticed bits of pebble and scree that had fallen off the mountain onto the road. Rich was already far ahead, hitting speeds close to 70 kmh. Halfway between the two final hairpins, the road veered slightly to the left. I was a touch too close to the inner face of the mountain, near the craggy cliff wall, and so I made a move to drift closer to the centre of the road. As I did so, I feathered the brakes at the exact moment I hit a small scattering of arrowhead rock that had splintered off the mountain face into the shadows. With no warning, my rear wheel skated a few centimetres towards the narrow gutter on the inner side of the road. I tried to compensate with the front wheel, fingered the brakes again, and then felt the front tire wobble hard. I was now suddenly, officially, instantly, deeply in trouble, and still doing about 50 km/h. The back wheel shot out from under me and caught the gutter. The front wheel turned straight sideways. My hands were ripped from the bar. I was in freefall at 40 km/h, but instead of toppling over, hitting the road, and sliding, the gutter pulled the bike, and me (still clipped into my pedals), into the wall of broken rock just twelve inches off the road. My right leg hit the jagged wall, and then my shoulder hit, too. My bike rammed into me and then cartwheeled over top as my feet were torn out of the clips. A boulder was sticking out the side of the rock face and my face was moving fast towards it; I turned my head just in time so that the boulder crashed against my helmet. There was a thud, more scraping, I heard what sounded like wheel spokes clattering, and then I came to a stop, splayed out on the road, my legs in the gutter, my torso on the pavement, my head in the middle of the downhill lane.
The whole thing had taken no more than two seconds, from first doing 60 km/h over shale I hadnt seen when Id touched my brakes, to the time I came to a stop.
I laid on the road for a few seconds, doing the checklist. Arms, legs, hands, fingers: all moveable. Neck, eyes: working. Then I looked down. The entire right side of my body was shredded. There was blood all over me and a smear of red on the road behind me. My left hand was torn up. My right leg was a pulpy mess. I decided to stand up, but before I did a thought entered my head: Okay, if I stand up and look down and see my body still on the ground, it means Im dead. It was a brief and sobering thought.
I stood. I looked down. My body was not on the road¦except for the skin and blood Id surfaced it with. I knew instinctively that Id just had a major escape. I was alive and could easily have not been.
My relief lasted for the five seconds it took me to turn around and look at the bike. Let me explain here that the Canadian bike maker Cervelo had agreed to assist the magazine with the story and had supplied us with these bikes for our three-day trip. A Cervelo R5. Full carbon frame. Tour-calibre components. My heart sank. The entire rear derailleur had been torn off, snapped at the derailleur hanger. The chain was dragging on the ground. The rear wheel had been badly bent. The bike was utterly unrideable.
I picked it up and began limping down the hill. (Incredibly, not a single car passed me; a blessing, since it might have easily run me over as I fell.) I staggered to the final Hairpin, #1, and at that point Rich reappeared on his way back up (having had to re-climb the hardest part, the first hill). He got off his bike when he saw me.
Oh no, he said, his face ashen. Oh no. Are you okay? What happened?
I explained as best I could, still in shock, dazed, but also strangely giddy, because, simply, I was alive. We eventually made it back to the car, into Bourg dOisans for medical supplies, and then back to Grenoble where we shocked the bike dealer. He gasped at the horror of the damage, the scrapes, the violence of the crash, and he immediately speculated, obviously very concerned, as to whether or not recovery was even possible. Then he noticed I hadnt come out of it too well, either.
I jest. Both the bike dealer, and the Cervelo rep, who I immediately called back in Canada, expressed nothing but concern for my injuries and dismissed the damage to the bike. They make great bicyclesperhaps the best in the worldbut they also hire great people. The bike could not be repaired, and after making a few phone calls on our behalf to arrange a rental bike for the two days following (Id come all the way to France to cycle the Alps, dammit, and I wasnt going to let a few scrapes ruin the plan), we thanked the bike dealer and headed back to town, to our hotel, to our room, to the shower, where I was finally able to fully survey the damage. Shredded right leg and right arm. Badly swollen and probably fractured left knuckle. Bone chip broken off on my right elbow. And a massive plate-sized bruise on my upper left thigh that was rock hard to the touch. But my neck felt okay. I was worried about a concussion, but my head was apparently intact.
I gingerly dressed and out we went. The day closed with a glass (or three) of red wine at a nice restaurant in town. Well, said Rich, raising a glass. Youve had your first day of cycling in the Alps. You made it up Alpe dHuez without stopping, and nearly killed yourself on the way down. Maybe tomorrow we ought to do something a bit easier!
I nodded, took a gulp of wine. I endorse that plan.
The sores up and down my legs had bled through the night and then dried to the sheets, so that when I awoke the next morning and tried to roll, gingerly, out of bed, a good portion of the bed moved with me. Prior to that morning, Id not devoted serious intellectual energy to exploring the meaning of the word peeling. That changed as I attempted to separate the bedclothes from where theyd fused with my flesh.
When we finally boarded our bikes in the village square at Bourg dOisans a couple hours later, Rich promised a calmer ride, given that most of my right side resembled a dropped pan of lasagna. I was beginning to learn, however, that my dear friend had a tendency to dispense the truth in extracts leavened with misdirection. It's an easier ride, he promised. It'll be a recovery ride. It's only about thirty kilometres and It's basically flat. 1% incline at most. There's a really charming little town where we can turn around. This'll just be a nice easy day.
Part of me did wonder, two hours later, about halfway up a ten-kilometre long 7% grade, just how good a friend Rich truly was. We stopped in La Grave for lunch. It was there, sitting on the patio of the modest Lou Ratel Restaurant, eating a plain sandwich, sipping a steaming latte, feeling the heat of the spring sun, staring out at the gleaming, glacier-encrusted peaks of La Meije and Le RÃ¢teau, that I finally felt I was experiencing cycling in the Alps as Id envisioned it before coming.
You mean you envisioned cycling in the Alps as sitting in a café sipping a latte? said Rich, laughing.
I raised my cup. Exactement.
The ride back was harrowing and exhilarating in spots, but passed without further event, and the highlight of the remainder of the day came at dinner in Grenoble, after which our two charming waitresses, Sophie and Elise, offered us a complimentary Chartreuse, the famous sweetly herbal liqueur native to the region.
We've already had wine, we said to them, flirting amiably. Do we really need another drink?
They laughed and threw their hands in the air. You don't need it, but you must have it, said Sophie. After all, you are in France!
The logic was irrefutable.
I thought the first two days had been hard.
We parked again in the small turnout close to Rochetaille, but this time we were not heading east towards Alpe dHuez, but north, to the feared Col de la Croix de Ferthe Pass of the Iron Cross. The Tour de France often goes over this pass. Rich did not misdirect about the challenge to come, likely reasoning that the Croix de Fer was simply too brutal a climb to mess with.
Im not going to lie, he said. This is a tough mountain. There are going to be some pretty tough sections.
My fractured knuckle was throbbing. Pus was oozing from the sores on my leg. The giant bruise on the upper inside part of my left thigh was both painful to the touch and rock hard. Rich looked as if hed just stepped out of a spa after a massage and a sauna.
As we set off, the sun was pouring through rocky slashes in the mountain range. There was no wind. Brooks babbled roadside. Traffic was non-existent. The only problem was that the tights Id purchased in Bourg dOisans (anticipating a bit of a chill higher up the pass) kept slipping down my backside. I had my cycling shorts on underneath, so no one behind me had to contend with a crevasse, so to speak, but it was still disconcerting.
We passed over a small dam, down a gentle slope, and then along a pastoral valley floor. It was at that point that Eden turned into the seven circles of hell. The road began to wind through the forest and then went straight uphill for ten kilometres of non-stop climbing, at an average grade of about 9%, with some sections over 12%. It was, Im told, quite scenic, but I couldnt tell, as my head was bent towards my handlebars for most of it. Even the reward of reaching the first mini-plateau of Riviere dAllemond was instantly negated by hitting a sharp downhill switchback of about two kilometres, which was deeply dispiriting for two reasons: first, because I knew wed be climbing it on the way back, and, second, because I also knew it was elevation wed have to re-climb to get up Croix de Fer.
After hauling my carcass up the 14% grade of the climb past the switchback, we turned northeast. I stopped for a drink, and noticed almost at the same time that the temperature had dropped significantly, that there were now clouds smearing the sky in the direction we were headed, and that there was a freshening wind in our faces.
I pointed all these things out to Rich. That's not a good combination, is it?
By the time we had completed another grueling switchback (which only brought into sight the even steeper switchback leading to the Barrage de Grand-Maison, the dam beyond which lay the final ascent above the tree line), the temperature had plummeted to near 0C and tiny snowflakes began to flutter about. I was in trouble again. My leg was aching and the elbow hurt. I couldnt feel my fingers. The climbing was now so relentless that it was becoming more mentally than physically exhausting, if that was possible. I spotted a road sign a couple hundred metres ahead. According to my reading of the map, we had about another five kilometres of straight climbing to make it to the top, and I knew, deep down, that I might not make it. I was a balloon that had basically sputtered itself flaccid. There was nothing in the tank. Excuses ran through my head. Youve already done Alpe dHuez. You had a major crash. This is a brutal day for cycling. What's the big deal if you just turn around and float home. Youre in France to enjoy yourself, not torture yourself.
I mentally slapped myself on the cheek. Snap out of it, I told myself. Youre here. Youre with one of your best friends who has come all this way to cycle with you, who has basically coaxed you up these mountains. You cant let him down. It's just five kilometres. You can do it. Five kilometres.
Even moving at the glacial speed of 10 km/h (glacial being the operative word, given the temperature), that meant it was only another half an hour. I could do it. I had to do it. Even though we had the looming switchback of the Barrage in front of us I had to push on.
We pulled up in front of the road sign. Col de le Croix de Fer, it read. 11 km.
My knees buckled. No. It couldnt be true. How? Id read the map wrong, clearly. 11 kilometres. Uphill. In temperatures now hovering right at 0 C.
I think Im done, Rich, I said. I just don't think I can do it. I couldnt feel my toes. A bead of sweat had frozen on the tip of my nose. Even Rich didnt look too happy.
Wow, he said. I have to admit I thought we were closer than that. He looked up to the Barrage, and back to me. We don't have to do it, he said. We've done incredibly well, just to get here. I admit, It's pretty cold. And it is straight up from here. On the other hand, we could go another kilometre or so, maybe just get to the top of the Barrage, and see how we feel then.
I paused, took a breath, nodded. We pushed on. As we crossed beside the face of the Barrage du Grand Maison, we passed through a five-metre high snow chute. The entire tilt of planet seemed to be uphill. I could see the final ascent to the Col off in the distance through the cloud and fluttering snow. We stopped to regroup. I hopped up and down to try and generate some warmth.
It was here that Rich evoked the phrase known to many a Tour de France observer, particularly those who have watched it on television over the years as narrated by the famed duo of Paul Sherwen and Phil Liggett. Sherwen once commented (about Marco Pantani trying to catch Lance Armstrong), He’s really having to dig deeply into the suitcase of courage.”
Youre really digging into the suitcase of courage, here, Curt, said Rich. I looked over. I noticed, for literally the first time in the entire trip, that Rich actually seemed to breathing heavily himself. This alone allowed me to dip a hand into the suitcase of courage to see what inspiration I might find.
Unfortunately, I found the suitcase empty. There was no energy, no courage, no strength. Id hit the wall, bonked, crashed, the elastic had snapped, the grape had been squashed. I was done. Rich, we have to stop. I said, struggling for breath. I could hear the defeat in my voice. The suitcase is empty. I don't think I even packed it. I think the airline lost it. Im going to have to look somewhere else. Im going to have see if there's anything left in the fanny pack of courage. It's all I got.
Rich gave me a direct and rather severe look, concerned, Im sure, about my mental health. What about five more minutes, he said. Why don't we just go another five minutes and see how we feel?
To someone who has never cycled up a mountain like this, It's difficult to accurately convey the level of suffering that distance mixed with elevation creates. More than that, It's the certainty of the suffering that is so emotionally taxing. The Belgian great Eddy Mercx was famous for saying that suffering on a bicycle is universal: becoming an elite rider only alters the duration of the pain, not the intensity. It hurts as much, he said of climbing, it just doesnt hurt as long. The reality is that any major ascent in the Alps or the Pyrenees or any mountain is about having to grapple with the way physical pain so seamlessly converts itself into psychic and emotional pain. The battle one fights with one's body is but a border skirmish compared to the mental Armageddon that takes place halfway up a thirty-kilometre climb at an 8% grade. There's only one way up that mountain, and no amount of inner dialogue will alter distance, elevation, and gravity. These are elements in an equation that can only have one result: suffering.
Curt? Rich was talking, but I wasnt really able to focus on him. Curt?! What do you think? Five minutes. Let's do five minutes and see how we feel.
Five minutes, I said, half-delirious. Okay. I can do that.
Which is what we did. And then we did it again. And again. We stopped a couple of times to hop up and down. My tights didnt live up to their name and kept slipping down my backside, but I didnt care; I was so happy for the extra warmth. We eventually reached the turnoff where a rider can either go to the Col du Glandon or the Col de la Croix de Fer, both of which are justly famed as brutes. From that turning point, we could actually see the Col itself, just three or four kilometres away, higher up, a saddle in the granite and snowy majesty of the Alps. It was a stunning and haunting sight given the altitude, the weather, the bleak stony beauty of it all.
It was now impossible to turn around, being within sight of the goal. We pushed on. Incredibly, once we began the final leg, the sun appeared briefly. A mere thirty seconds of warmth, light, hope, allowed for a few more minutes of pushing those pedals.
Three and a half hours after wed let the parking lot, we reached the Col de la Croix de Fer. 1300 metres of elevation in just over 26 kilometres, which meant an average 5% grade, with some sections over 12%. We rested a moment at the top, shivering beside the firmly closed coffee shop Rich had promised would be open and serving hot chocolate.
The view from the top made every ounce of sweat worth it, every injury, every frozen toe, every baggy-panted indignity. It was a 360 degree panorama of rock, snow, ice, narrow roads, and the glory of Alps. Italy and Switzerland were within sight from this high up. But the magic of it was that wed made it up under our own power. There was a scattered handful of tourists mingling about the pass, taking photos, oohing and aahing over the view, who then returned to their cars for the drive back down. All I could think, watching them, was, You cannot understand how beautiful and immense this is having only driven up here.
We didnt really lingerit was zero degrees, after allbut given that it was our final day, our final climb, we did take a second to soak it in, the height, the ascent, the fact that wed made it¦well, the fact that Id made it. Rich would have turned it into a less dramatic event had he not been carrying The Suitcase of Curtis with him, but, still, I was encouraged to hear even an excellent rider like him say, I think that might be the hardest ride Ive ever done.
And then came the descent. It was a good thing I had the experience of Alpe dHuez behind me, because the descent from the Col de la Croix du Fer was trickier and longer than Alpe dHuez. And it wasnt made any easier by the fact that neither of us could feel our hands from the icy wind chill, which made braking difficult. At one point, just past the Barrage du Grand-Maison, I realized I was doing 60 km/h going straight downhill but could not tell if my fingers were pressing my brakes or not.
Then the bottom came, and as if wed passed through a portal, it was once again the warm spring day we vaguely remembered from our departure five hours earlier. When we reached the car, parked in exactly the same spot wed parked in three days earlier for our first day's cycling up Alpe dHuez, it seemed scarcely believable wed only been in the Alps for three days. It seemed like weeks. It had been harrowing, life-threatening, bone-deep exhausting, occasionally humiliating, and full of intense physical suffering.
And now Im desperate to go back.
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